Why?
Mood:  sad

Why is it the The old timeline version of The Valeyard the same as me!?  Yet, if I was the new timeline version.  Too scary to think about.  Damn voices in my head.  Why do I ruin everything?  That's why I write.  Talk about getting too far into character, yet, they are my stories, so they do reveal a whole lot about me that, well, I just thought about it, as it's all true.  Look at my Dr Who website, and see my Doctors/Valeyards.  Truth is stranger than fiction.

Tom does mean "twin" in Arabic (though some woman asked me why I don't speak Spanish, as my name is Thomas.  Mmmph!).  Yet, why is it the evil side.  There is no real good side to me, there is only both sides of the spectrum.

I am technically and literally a Doctor (seriously), but when I finally got the title (called myself "Professor" for years), I created The Valeyard soon after, and I stuck with that. 

There are too many "Doctors" around, and mine is a legal title.  But being "The Valeyard", it only enflames my disgust for people, try to destroy any sense of happiness I want as I can't have it, and pushes me to be alone, in front of the computer, in front of the TV, not wanting to talk to anyone, etc., et cetera, and so forth....

Yet, I'm no bigger a screw-up than most people!  Look at the news (ah, they're lying about this and that!  If you believe that, and want to continue to live in your little bubble, then don't bother me!  Yet, don't push your politics on me either!  Let's agree on somethings, but not let it consume...).  Look at how unhealthy people are, and not care. 

Churches and Televangelists that constantly take people's money!  If you believe, you don't have to go to church and listen to what you can read yourself.  If you don't, then that's you're choice.

Live your life.  Try to be happy.  I wish I can stop screwing things up, but I guess I'm not supposed to be happy.  Narcissistic, pessimistic, yadda, yadda, yadda.  I guess I will work on my story notes now.  I hate this life.  I'm sorry I upset and hurt the people I care about.  Maybe once I get done with the writing, find a better job, sell the majority of my stuff, and live 'til my 70s wanting nothing out of life, then I'll be okay.

But for now, I have a story I'm working on, and it shows how my new timeline Doctor came to be, and what he had to do to start over again....